I've hated quite a sum of people, but not every one of them bothered me everyday for over a week or two, even if there were, it was probably not a big deal cuz I don't even remember.
One person pissed me off 3 years ago, some may say "get over it" but I will never ever forget that day, and I don't think I can ever forgive her. When I see her till this very day I still want to knock the fuck out of her rat face. An ex that I was with for nearly 4 years, ended cuz apparently the love he had for me faded. Fine. That bitch was my friend, she knew shit about us, I've told her stuff, I use to chill with her once in a while, but she started dating my ex a few days after we broke up. I should have known better, that bitch is always the rebound. I shouldn't care if he starts going out with someone else right after we break up, but fuck yeah I'll be fuckin pissed off with her for going out with him if she was my fuckin friend.

Now 3 years later, 1 bitch has been pissing me off for the past 3 weeks already. Say I'm jealous say I'm pathetic, but fucking hell I havn't had this much hate for 1 person everyday even without seeing her. K I know she's not worth my anger, my energy I put into my anger my brain cells, nothing she ain't worth it, but god dammit, I'm pissed off. I know she ain't shit, she chills at Wanchai and pretty much sucks up, wait I duno if suckin up is the right word, to pretty much ppl who works in the F&B or night business. Does she not have friends to talk to when shes sad? She's always at where my boyfriend works, every single time I'm there, which is already quite freakin often, like 3-4 times a week. And okay fine, my boyfriend maybe need to "socialize" with her n her friends cuz they are "regular customers" n she is "helping" to promote. Fine, I "understand", but god dammit, it ain't right when I'm sitting right there next to him, her knowing that I'm his girlfriend she doesn't even give a slight bit of a respect. Actually you know what, I'm not even gonna bother explaining this shit, cuz I ain't even thinking straight, whatever I typed there probably made me sound pathetic, but trust me if a lot of you were in my fuckin shoe, she'll be hurt.
If it helps, shes white and wears flip flops into a club. And imagine, if there was a white bitch that goes up to where ur boyfriend works, and ever since the beggining she keeps talking to ur boyfriend and your boyfriend is "obligated" to talk to her and she knows you're the girlfriend, and she just keeps talking n talking and talking to him.
Some may say why don't I stop her from talking to him, well I'm not that lame, he is working, BUT STILL.

(apologies to everyone who got offended with me sounding racist)

I was on my xanga just now and on January 10th 2007, I did one of those quiz questionnaire type of things and have decided to do the same one but for this year, lets see if there are any changes.

01. i have a cell phone.
02. i have friends who use me.
03. i am an only child.
04. i am a shopoholic. (2008:yeah i swear in 2007 i did a lot of shopping which I shouldn't have)
05. i love dangly earrings.
06. i have smoked a cigarette before
07. i love cold weather.
08. i'm obsessed with the computer.
09. i have shot a gun before.
10. i can't live without music. (2008: eh! i'll survive)
11. i have no tolerance of ignorant people.
12. i have ridden on a motorcycle before.
13. i'll be in this town forever (2008:i think...)
14. i've been to 5 other countries. (2008: i realize i have its just i didn't know how to count)
15. i get annoyed easily.
16. i eventually want kids.
17. i have neat handwriting.
18. i have more than a few horrible memories.
19. i am addicted to chocolate.
20. i am an atheist.
21. my parents are strict.
22. i love airplane rides.
23. i love taking pictures. sometimes..
24. i hate girls (or guys, for that matter.) who are fake. not that im not fake myself sometimes. heh (2008:still very true)
25. i can be mean when i want to
26. my parents care about my grades.
27. one of my best friends is a guy.
28. i have way too many purses. (2008: yeah but i barely use any of them)
29. i'm obsessed with lip gloss.
30. i am easy to talk to.
31. i would never eat raw fish.
32. i cry easily.
33. i hate when people are late. (2008: but i tend to b late all the time now)
34. i procrastinate.
35. i love winter. (2008: k not anymore)
36. i have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
(2008: its either that or I'm just really lazy that's why I leave my clothes outside my closet)
37. i love to sleep.
38. i wish i were smarter.
39. i'm afraid of flying.
40. i hate drama. (2008: i actually enjoy it when im bored)
41. i bite my nails.
42. i have been on an 8 hour drive.43. i never fight with my parents.
44. i love the beach
45. i have never had the chicken pox.
46. i have gone out in public in my pajamas.
47. i can't control my emotions.
48. i have a best friend.
49. i have moved more than once.
50. i truly love my friends.(2008: depends who)
51. i have braces.
52. i love to write. sometimes sometimes
53. i have never broken a bone.
54. i agree with racist people
55. i hate my computer
56. i love guys that play the drums.
57. i state the obvious.
58. i'm a happy person. yeah in frnt of ppl im seem like one HEE (2008: i do think i'm quite a happy person just a little too retarded)
59. i love to dance. (2008: not anymore.. -_-")
60. i love to sing. (2008: but i get too shy nowadays)
61. i love cleaning my room.
62. i tend to get jealous very easily.
63. i love cute underwear.
64. i have gotten high before.
65. i love night better than day.
66. i have been on the phone for over 5 hours at a time.
67. i don't like to study for tests.
68. i love God.69. i am too forgiving.
70. i have horrible sense in direction.
71. i miss elementary school.
72. i have had a boyfriend before. -_-""...
73. i'm a daddy's girl. yeah before i was now i havnt spoken to that fat fuck for days
74. i love kisses on my forehead.
75. i love the color pink.
76. i love to sew.
77. my eye color changes. (2008: yeah i guess, nothin wrng with dark brwn...)
78. i should see a therapist.
79. i played on a guys sports team.
80. i become stressed easily.
81. i hate liars.
82. i like comfy sweatpants.
83. i can play the piano. ish
84. i love the smell of rain.
85. i love my family.86. i hate needles.
87. i am a perfectionist
88. i always wanted to learn to play the drums.
89. i hate the feeling of failure.
90. i have friends in other countries.
91. i know how to cook.
92. i can be quite selfish.
93. at times, i still act like a little kid.
94. i have food allergies.
95. i love little kids. 96. i love to read.(2008:i do...)
97. i wish i were more motivated for school.
98. i love getting stuff in the mail.
99. i have problems with letting go of old feelings.
100. i hate being alone.
101. i love summer. okay la...
102. i love the weekends. (2008: k not that much anymore cuz i need to work)
103. i love black eyeliner.
104. i think im pretty.
105. i type with one hand. sometimes
106. i live in a one story house.
107. i wear make-up.
108. i have never ridden on an underground subway.
111. i go to church.
112. i sing in the shower.
113. i have never been camping.
114. i hate cheerleaders.
115. i usually get what i want.
116. i have been on stage before.
117. i love roller coasters.
118. no one knows the full story of my life(2008: now coming to think about it i think a lot of people knoes the full story of my life )
119. i am close with my parents. my mother only. (2008: well i guess i am close to both but doesn't mean i don't hate them)

ive changed so damn much, i dont drink i dont blaze i dont party anymore.
on friday and sats, or even during weekdays, i want to work.
i dont see much of my friends no more, neither do i talk to much ppl anymore.
i dont argue with my parents anymore.
i spend a lil more time with my boyfriend nowadays.
i rather stay home on my bed watchin friends than go out.
i want to be away from everything n everyone
but still drama never fails to find me

to the point that even if i stayed home 24/7 not speak to anyone and just stay in my own lil world, shit will still fuckin come to fuck my mind up.

this year hasnt been a good year for me
a friend died
my grandma from my mum side died
my dad went to the hospital and again a month later
then i went to the hospital for nearly a week
then grandma fainted a few times
and now my grandma is gettin sick
my dad goto get his operation on thursday

its only july..

my dad constantly yelling at everyone when no1 is doin anything wrong
like 5 minutes ago yelled at my grandma's maid , who is my maid's daughter inlaw.
my dad didnt even phrase his sentence properly and just constantly yellin at her for 10 minutes.

im tired i really am..